This has been bothering me since yesterday. I was thinking about it on the walk home. So here it goes…

I’m the vice president of our class and I am really happy with my position. I didn’t want to be president because I know that it will be hard especially now that we’re in high school. But the thing is, I feel like I’m not doing my job.

I tell you, I am really trying. Do you know how hard it is to control the class? Everyone is screaming and joining in. Me having a weak voice makes it harder. I can’t scream that loud, so I have to tell them one by one. But they won’t listen either.

I thought it will be different now that we’re in high school. I thought they’ll be more mature. Sometimes I let them have fun that’s why I don’t scold them, I just say “not too loud”. That’s the thing of being an officer, people will get mad at you but you still need to do your duty.

And yesterday, it’s like I refused to do what I was supposed to do. I feel really bad.  I wish I could’ve handled the situation better. But it’s done. He even asked me if I was doing my task and I said no. It really crushed me to hear that coming from my mouth. I was surprised of the truth. The ugly truth.

So, I am sorry. I know you guys elected me knowing I can handle it. Give me another chance and I will try my hardest. I can be a good leader. I know I am a good leader.

xo,

Dana.